November 16, 2006

3:22 AM
I can't sleep. Actually I did sleep from around 10 PM to 11:30 PM, but I've been up ever since. Played guitar for awhile, read a bit, and of course I've been surfing the web aimlessly for the last few hours.

Earlier today(technically yesterday)my wife and I went in to see her doctor for perhaps the last time before she gives birth. The doctor said "you are 3 centimeters dialated and your water is ready to burst". Well, she probably didn't say it like that, but basically telling us that you're baby is friggin coming!!! And that's what's on my mind. I can only think of this historic event that is about to take place in my life. And how scared I am that I won't be a good father. It's really terrifying to be honest. The mind is doing cartwheels thinking about my own father and thinking about my mom and techniques of raising a child.
OH BOY!!! I need to sleep.
Mike Park

9:47 AM
I managed to get back to sleep somewhere around 4:30 ish AM and slept til' 8 AM. Monica is starting to have contractions every 15 minutes or so. I think today might be the day. I'm so tired. Peace, mike